Cardiologist-check, Psychologist-check, Internist-Check, Dietician-Check, Endocrinologist-Check. I have been cleared for surgery and have a date, July 11, 2011. That's the good news---2 weeks. Surprisingly I am indifferent at the moment, not nervous, not excited, it's kind of like I know it's coming but am mourning in a way (although not letting myself enjoy the anticipation.)
Right now it feels exactly like the last few weeks before Finn was born when I was mourning the fact that Mike and I would never just be "Mike and I" ever again. I am doing that with my comfort foods. I'm trying to get all of my favorite foods in before starting my liquid diet on Monday (Please forgive me if I am a little irritable over the next couple of weeks). Little did I know that one chapter of life was over and one of the best chapters was just beginning. I imagine that the weeks after the gastro procedure will be similar as well to the few weeks after having him--an adjustment period--emotional and unchartered waters, a learning experience. I am so excited that another chapter of my life will begin but am mourning the unhealthy lifestyle that was my life. It will be a period of adjustment, a time to learn a different way to live.
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