Taking the Easy Way Out

I had originally started thinking about getting bariatric surgery in 2001. I went to see a doctor, did the psych evaluation, sleep study and everything else required for gastric-bypass surgery. At the time my insurance did not approve me for the procedure so I kind of forgot about the idea until this year. I figured that maybe because I was not "big enough" or "unhealthy enough" for the surgery and that maybe I was "taking the easy way out." Since 2001 before I let everyone know that I was contemplating surgery, I had heard a family member mention that the surgery is an easy way out. A friend of mine who had bariatric surgery herself mentioned that she had thought that she had taken "the easy way out." Well, let me just tell everyone, especially anyone who is contemplating having surgery or who has had surgery that this surgery is in no way an easy way out, just ask my family, friends, and even my co-workers. I was on a liquid diet for 4 weeks straight (2 weeks before surgery and 2 weeks after)-it was the hardest month of my life. Everything that I had learned about eating had to be thrown out of the window and a new way of eating had to be learned. I have to eat much slower than I have ever eaten-eating too fast has caused me to be sick on a couple of occasions. Obviously I have to eat less-learning to eat less has also caused me to be sick more than once.
Not only has the surgery affected my eating but also my way of life. This past weekend was jam-packed with activities during the day and partying at night. This took a huge toll on my quality of life this week. I did too much too fast!! Yesterday, I reverted back to a self-imposed liquid diet to help my body get back to a normal state. Mike has once again stepped up to take care of Finn while I went to bed early (7pm) yesterday and will probably go to bed early again tonight.
This new life is a better life in terms of my health but is in now way an easier way of life.